I am ill too often and I really dislike feeling ill. Yesterday afternoon I ate some pasta that did not seem to sit well in my stomach; I had spent the rest of the afternoon vomiting and whining in bed like the baby that I tend to be when I don’t feel well. So since yesterday afternoon I have been feeling hot, nauseas and just plain miserable…

Yesterday morning my older sister’s doctor called and asked if my sister was here because he had been trying to get a hold of my sister on her phone but it was off. He asked if I will be seeing her that day and if I do I must tell her to contact him as soon as she could as he had received her blood test results and it was important that he spoke to her in regards to the results…

A couple of hours later my mother and I, along with my niece went to the doctors office where my mother had to collect my sisters sick note for work. My mother went inside while I stayed with my niece in the car, she said that she would be a few minutes but it turned out to be longer. She came back to the car and when she sat in front of the steering wheel, she looked at my niece and started crying. I knew just then that there was something wrong with my sister’s blood test results, “Mommy what’s wrong?” I asked. “Your sister’s leukemia is back. Her doctor said that if she doesn’t start intensive treatment next week, she will have a few months left to live…” My heart fell to the pit of my stomach and tears started running down my face as I looked at my niece…

My sister has to start treatment next week, the treatment is costly and I hope that her medical aid will cover the costs for her treatment as she can not afford the treatment on her own. This is the third time my sister has to fight against leukemia; she had it when she was very young, several years ago and it’s back again, only this time it’s really bad. I can not help but try to fight back tears when I look at my niece; she’s so small and helpless, I really hope that she will not have to grow up without her mother…

I am getting much fed up with the way things are going lately, money is tight; people around me are becoming ill and getting physically or emotionally hurt…

Life is so complicated!