Monthly Archive for October, 2006

I Want To Feel Safe

Firstly I want to make something clear, I am somewhat of a racist even to those of my own race that do stupid actions and cause problems. If someone drives like a hooligan on the road, I would curse and call them names no matter what race they are, the same goes with crime and other indecent acts. Mind you I do not yell out to them, I say the things out but not to their faces because I do not want to get into a scene and cause more trouble.

Yesterday afternoon my mother and I made plans for today. We were going to go the PlantPark along with my baby niece to show her the farm animals and have a mouthwatering glass of fresh mango juice after we went to my father’s place of work to give him his lunch. I would then go to the craft store in town to buy some beads then hand in my curriculum vitae at the video store where they have full time positions available. After that I wanted to go to the mall to spend some of my birthday money then we would go back home but all this was about to change as we were out of the house and on our way…

As we were driving down our driveway, just a few meters before the road itself, my mother brought the car to a stop as a woman in a white sedan was on her way to exit our road and as she drove in front of our driveway a light blue Nissan van with three men sitting on the back of the van that had been parked on the side of the road to the left of our drive way for well over an hour, suddenly made a sharp right turn and blocked the road. The woman in the sedan came to a halt to avoid a collision and the three men that were sitting on the back of the van jumped off and made their way around the woman’s car, one at the passenger door, one at the trunk and the other at the driver’s door. The two men at the doors began hitting the windows in attempt to smash through and the other began hammering on the lock of the trunk with a hammer and screwdriver. My mother started shouting and honking the horn, I was in a state of shock with what was happening right in front of us. I grabbed my handbag, got my camera out and frantically tried to record the incident. One man took out a gun and I started crying as he stared straight at us, “Oh my god, mommy he has a gun! He has a gun! Close the windows!” At that point I hid my camera and dialed Emergency Services on my mobile phone. The man at the driver’s door had smashed the window, opened the door and pulled out the woman, took her handbag and something that looked like a cooler box, then all three men quickly jumped onto the back of the van and drove off.

My mother drove onto the road, parked the car on the side of the road and she burst out the car to help the woman, shouting at the workers that were busy unloading cement off the trucks in the road several meters away (there is no loading zone – long story), for help. The woman had blood on right arm and hand; I am not sure to how badly she was hurt as I had to keep an eye on my niece. I was on my mobile phone waiting to be transferred to our local emergency center for a few minutes and when I was connected, I had to have a woman that would only understand what I said after six times of repeating myself. I gave her the license plate number of the van, requested that an ambulance be dispatched because the woman was injured and bleeding, I also requested that the police are dispatched too.

The criminals were not wearing gloves or masks and spent about two minutes trying to gain access into the woman’s car. They did not seem to care that there were workers in the road several meters away or that just a few meters away we were witnessing this indecent act…

Or did they care that we were right there witnessing their crime?

Fucking kaffirs! I hope that they die of some incurable flesh eating disease…

The woman works for the paint and hardware store and had money from the store to take somewhere to make a deposit or something like that, I am not certain about this as my mother told me, I haven’t asked much about what the woman has said. After a few minutes, the woman’s brother (who also works at the store) got in her car and drove off. She remained with her other brother that also works at the store. I turned on my camera to view the video but there was none! I must have pressed the wrong button or something, I am so angry about that amongst other things. My mother briefly spoke to two of our neighbors after talking to the woman for a few minutes and then we went to my father’s place of work, told him what happened, gave him his lunch, headed to the video store to hand in my curriculum vitae and then headed back home.

I personally think that someone that works at the store organised the incident. I mean out of all the cars that are driven on our road, this woman carrying a large amount of cash in particular was the victim…

It has been a few hours since the incident and nor the ambulance or police have made an appearance…

I know that this kind of crime happens all over the world but I really hate this country because of its high crime rate. I am so scared of living in this house now more than I ever have because this happened right at our driveway. This would never have happened if the stupid fucking store was nonexistent; it has caused problems from damaged private property to crime.

I hope that the next incident that happens in this road will not be any worse…

Scrambled

I really do not like being ill. When I am ill, I get depressed because I get ill too often. My youngest sister and I have been ill with the flu since Tuesday. We have both been in bed trying to get better with high fevers, snotty clogged noses, dry coughs and playing Adventure Island 2 for Nintendo on our computers when my mother was not around to make sure that we were in bed trying to get better. I have a horrible tasting medicinal syrup that I have to consume along with some effervescent tablets that taste even worse. Every morning I wake up with a dry mouth due to my nose being clogged, I hate it!

I have had so many thoughts on my mind lately that I feel emotionally drained from trying to figure out solutions and just not being able to find peace with some issues that I have. Life seems to be changing too fast, too soon. There are things that I have given up on as it seems that it would just be better to do so than to keep trying at something that will never work in my favour but I do wish that some things could be in my favour. I don’t know if this paragraph makes any sense at all, oh well…

In regards to this website, I have installed Quoter, a plugin that allows users to quote a comment in a similar way to forums. I have other plugins that I want to install and will get to that when I feel like doing so. I also have a new layout in mind but it’s just an idea that I might work on. Last night I uploaded some photos, including some of my birthday gifts.

Who The, Where The, What The…

We had a small dinner for my birthday last Monday night; it was just my mother, sisters, older sister’s boyfriend and my aunt. My father was not able to join us for dinner as he was at work and my brother never made an appearance. I called him that night, even the night before to ask if he would be coming, he first said yes, then he said no and that he will come over for a visit during the week; that didn’t happen either…

I got some very nice gifts for my birthday. I got my new camera from my father and mother as an early birthday gift just over a week before my birthday. My youngest sister gave me her gift, a mini travel cosmetics set and bracelets, the day before my birthday and I got a beautiful necklace and bracelet from my aunt on my birthday. The day after my godmother gave me a gift basket with various organic body products that smell really good. Wednesday morning I had my friend, Wafa and Aunt Gabrielle over for coffee and delicious chocolate cake, Wafa gave me a gorgeous gold necklace with matching earrings and some money. Aunt Gabrielle’s gift to me was a pale pink Lancôme travel cosmetics pouch with two bottles of nail varnish and two travel lotions; along with some money too.

I have been babysitting my niece since last Tuesday as my older sister’s maternity leave has ended and she had started working again that day. So every weekday I have to look after my niece who is somewhat of a fussy baby but she is mostly a pleasure to take care of…

I have been spending the past week looking after my niece, being miserable, browsing the internet, listening to music and being just plain lazy. I haven’t been sleeping well and when I do sleep, it is when I should actually be awake. I should start getting my sleeping pattern back on track. I become a sleep-starved, complaining bitch when I have not had my proper sleep.

EDIT: My brother came over a little earlier and will be leaving in about an hour. He came up with the title for this post :P I have really missed him, I haven’t seen him in ages, so this visit has made my day. He may just be my best friend but he is really like a brother to me, even though things aren’t as the way they were before, like how we used to spend alot more time together than the amount of time we now spend together, I am glad that I have him in my life…